Diary of a one legged woman

Ok..i'm not one legged but i do have one crutch!..I'm sitting in a restaurant in town impatiently waiting 4my ride home and my mind started thinking back..i documented this year in my head and i'm amazed at how far Ive come..its so easy to complain about today but think back and you will see,how grateful u need to be..
I may complain about my crutch-but there was a time i needed two.
I may complain that walking to the loo is too far-but there was a time i needed help couldn't go alone
I might complain,that i cant hang out with my friends like id like to..
But there was a time i was lying on a tarmac road screaming in pain..wondering whose broken leg i was looking at..
I may complain that my job sucks,but if it wasn't for my job would i have been able to pay the hospital bills?
  I may get frustrated that i have to rely on people to get around and angry sometimes at the physiotherapy and bored at the slow recovery,but i only need to look back to remember i am blessed..no helmet,hit by a VAN,landed in the middle of a busy junction yet no car ran me over...how can i complain?
So ,are u complaining today?look back ,you are sure to find something to be thankful for.

December 16, 2008

Taking stock

Wow how fast this year has gone !a few months ago i was dreading October because I didn't want to turn 27!its the oldest Ive ever been,and i had thought id have done and achieved more than i have..but the past 5months have made me realize that life isn't about ticking against my to do list.its about waking up in the morning and thanking God you're alive..its appreciating the small things like walking to the bathroom.i cant walk right now without crutches so walking is a big deal to me...its enjoying the song you hear on the radio and singing along..who cares if its off key..its about appreciating that job u love to hate,because 4me that job paid my high hospital bills..its about calling your parents to see how they are doing..family is all you have when your down,or break a leg!they wont always be around..appreciate them now..its about listening to your gut when it tells you stay away from that man..the heart isn't always right,stay out of his sight!and lastly Ive learned God created the earth and everything in it,why shouldn't i trust him to walk me through this crazy thing called life?acknowledge the creator he truly does knows whats best for you .oh oh!and..NB : there's nothing wrong with buying yourself a present on your birthday!duh i work hard,spoil thyself!happy birthday to me! :)

October 9, 2008

Broken bones

Its been one month since the accident,so much has been going through my mind since then..struggling with anger,pain,fear,helplessness,resentment towards those who caused the accident,and to those who walked away unscratched...as i count the days,the minutes the months,I'm finally getting to the point where I'm realizing Gods will in all this,he wanted my attention and hes gotten it.i was so busy running around getting caught up in serving him and continually chasing love,that i forgot the most important thing.God wants me.all of me.he broke me to make me.im learning all my lessons,picking up the pieces,listening out to hear his voice..trusting,leaning,loving,living everyday for him.broken bones..all for his purpose.i am not alone.

October 4, 2008

The cycle

To breathe is to live
To live is to try
To try is to risk
To risk is to fall
To fall is to hurt
To hurt is to learn
To learn is to gain so that there's no more pain
..so lets wait till tomorrow and do this again!

August 25, 2008

Again

You feel lost and alone
Youve been walking this dark road so long
Looking for strength to go on
The past it haunts your soul
It feels so heavy it wont let go

Do you believe the sun can shine again,
Chase the darkness & the rain
Break free and carry on
Leave the chains behind
The sun will shine again

You've turned your back on love
Put up walls to your heart
Anybody trying to get close
Gets turned away
Well the day is drawing near when
The storm will end the rays of light will come in
Chase the darkness within
A new beginning a new dawn
Again.

July 30, 2008

The other side of the moon

Its dark,no life ,no air, was told it was the ultimate trip once in a lifetime they said so i jumped with excitement bought the ticket,paid the price,wanted to look all nice got on the rocket,plugged into the socket,the lift off was awesome saw the stars came close to the sun..son of a gun.!beauty unrivaled,so it unraveled..finally i landed only to find..its dark,no air,no life.the other side of the moon.


July 26, 2008

Random thoughts

Life's the full roller-coaster...i look back and cant believe the things I've been through..if this was the twenties was like damn wonder how the thirties is going to be!!..oh well its still along way away..(at least that's what i keep telling myself!!)
so from the past few years this is the wisdom Ive come up with..
  life's tough,so live it!the world will still keep turning and people will keep on walking.
look upwards for your source of strength,and sideways if in need of a friend
  don't be afraid to cry,its an expression of your humanity
ask for help if u need it,if u make a mistake don't whine forever learn from it and move on..
and lastly,dont be afraid to love,so what if it hurts,i know now..u cant live if u dont love!

July 23, 2008